Is there nothing to make life good? I must sound so selfish. I have so much to be grateful for, yet I am ungrateful. I am simply not motivated to do my homework. There are many things I would be glad to do. I would love to paint, or cook, or play the piano, but I am stuck needing to do homework. I am sitting here, either lying looking at the ceiling, daydreaming, or I am on Facebook, or now I am just writing on about how dull life is. I need a friend, I need a girlfriend who will motivate me to do my homework so I can get on to better things in life.
I simply feel lifeless. Like nothing is alive except my fingers loosely attached to the weary thoughts in my brain allowing me to type nonsense onto this blog. Maybe I will die in pursuit of nothing. There are so many things I wish to pursue, maybe it is those things exactly which keep me from caring, I care so much about the things I want to pursue that I don't pursue them so that they won't hurt me. If I try, I might fail, and then I will have lived for nothing, though there are many things that I try and succeed in, so why must other things be so different?
Do I need a brake from life, of corse not, no one has ever told me that except myself, If I want to be lazy, I will have to face a wall disagreement from all those who surround me. Although I know many who want the same, to simply enjoy life, they don't think of it as being lazy, isn't there something to live for without being criticized of one's laziness.
I know what it is like to get what you want and completely wonder why you ever wanted it. I have spent summers being lazy and thought to myself, I will never be lazy again, well, maybe we just need short brakes more often. I don't know what to say, I suppose I'm done ranting about meaningless thoughts that seep out of my brain when I am as tired as I am tonight.
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